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Saturday, July 31st, 2010

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    12:24a
    His ferocious glare silenced the attendants...
    His ferocious glare silenced the attendants thereShe had a sense that he would have struck them if they had spoken; she had never heard of him doing a single violent actNot since he had killed a man and lost his own manhood
    She let them bathe her, let the scented oils soften her skinThere had been blood on it that afternoonThe waters swirled around her and then awayThe attendants washed her hairAfter, Scelto painted the nails of her fingers and toesA soft shade, dusty roseFar from the color of blood, far from anger or griefLater she would paint her lips the same shadeShe doubted they would make love, thoughShe would hold him and be heldShe went back to her room to wait for the summons
    From the light she knew when evening had fallenEveryone in the saishan always knew when evening fellThe day revolved towards and then away from the hour of darknessShe sent Scelto outside, to receive the word twiggy balenciaga when it came
    A short time after he came back and told her that Brandin had sent for Solores
    Anger flamed wildly within herlike the head of Isolla of Ygrath in the Audience ChamberDianora could scarcely draw breath, so fierce was her sudden rageNever in her life had she felt anything like this, this white hot caldron in her heartAfter Tigana fell, after her brother was driven away, her hatred had been a shaped thing, controlled, channeled, driven by purpose, a guarded flame that she'd known would have to burn a long timeA caldron boiling over inside her, prodigious, overmastering, sweeping all before it like a lava flowHad Brandin been in her room at that moment she could have ripped his heart out with her nails and teeth, as the women tore Adaon on the mountainsideShe saw Scelto take an involuntary backwards step away from her; she had never known him to fear her or anyone else beforeIt was not an omega 18k watch observation that mattered now
    What mattered, all that mattered, the only thing, was that she had saved the life of Brandin of Ygrath today, trampling into muck and spattered blood the clear, unsullied memory of her home and the oath she'd sworn in coming here so long agoShe had violated the essence of everything she once had been; violated herself more cruelly than had any man who'd ever lain with her for a coin in that upstairs room in Certando
    And in return? In return, Brandin had just sent for Solores di Corte, leaving her to spend tonight alone
    Not, not a thing he should have done
    It did not matter that even within the fiery heat of her own blazing Dianora could understand why he might have done this thingUnderstand how little need he would have tonight for wit or intelligence, for sparkle, for questions or suggestionsHis need would be for the soft, unthinking, reflexive gentleness that black fendi spy Solores gaveThat she herself apparently did notThe cradling worship, tenderness, the soothing voiceHe would need shelter tonightShe could understand: it was what she needed too, needed desperately, after what had happened
    But she needed it from him
    And so it came to be that, alone in her bed that night, sheltered by no one and by nothing, Dianora found herself naked and unable to hide from what came when the fires of rage finally died
    She lay unsleeping through the first and then through the second chiming of the bells that marked off the triads of the dark hours, but before the third chiming that heralded the coming of grey dawn two things had happened within her
    The first was the inexorable return of the single strand of memory she'd always been careful to block out from among all the myriad griefs of the year Tigana was occupiedBut she truly was unsheltered and exposed in the dark of that gucci bangle watch Ember Night, drifting terribly far from whatever moorings her soul had found
    While Brandin, on the far wing of the palace sought what comfort he could in Solores di Corte, Dianora lay as in an open space and alone, unable to deflect any of the images that now came sweeping back from years agoImages of love and pain and the loss of love in pain that were far too keen, too icy keen a wind in the heart, to be allowed at any normal time
    But the finger of death had rested on Brandin of Ygrath that day, and she alone had guided it away, steering the King past the darkest portal of Morian, and tonight was an Ember Night, a night of ghosts and shadowsIt could not be anything like a normal time, and it was notWhat came to Dianora, terribly, one after another in unceasing progression like waves of the dark sea, were her last memories of her brother before he went away
    He had been too young to fight by the omega ladies watch Dei

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