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Wednesday, March 31st, 2010

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    The sin of the gods, it was named, what they...
    The sin of the gods, it was named, what they didFor Adaon and Eanna were said to have been brother and sister at the beginning of time, and Morian was their child
    Dianora didn't feel like a goddess, and her mirror offered no illusions: only a too thin face with enormous, staring eyesShe knew only that her happiness terrified her, and consumed her with guilt, and that her love for Baerd was the whole of her worldAnd what frightened her almost as much was seeing the same depth of love, the same astonished passion in himHer heart misgave her constantly, even as they reached for their fugitive joy: too bright this forbidden flame in a land where any kind of brightness was lost or not allowed
    He came to her every nightThe woman slept downstairs; their mother slept, and woke, in her own worldIn the dark of Dianora's room they escaped into each other, reaching fake gucci watch through loss and the knowledge of wrong in search of innocence
    He was still driven to go out some nights to walk the empty streetsNot as often as before, for which she gave thanks and sought a kind of justification for herselfA number of young men had been caught after curfew and killed on the wheels that springIf what she was doing kept him alive she would face whatever judgment lay in wait for her in Morian's Halls
    She couldn't keep him every night thoughSometimes a need she could not share or truly understand would drive him forthHow the city was different under the two moons or one of them or the starsHow softer light and shadow let him see it as Tigana againHow he could walk silently down towards the sea and come upon the darkened palace, and how the rubble and ruin of it could somehow be rebuilt in his mind in darkness towards what it had been mens brushed steel and gold cartier watch before
    He had a need for that, he saidHe never baited the soldiers and promised her he never wouldHe didn't even want to see them, he saidThey crashed into the illusions he wantedHe just needed to be abroad inside his memory of the city that had goneSometimes, Baerd told her, he would slip through gaps he knew in the harbor walls and walk along the beach listening to the sea
    By day he labored, a thin boy at a strong man's job, helping to rebuild what they were permitted to rebuildRich merchants from Corte, their ancient enemies, had been allowed to settle in the city, to buy up the smashed buildings and residential palaces very inexpensively, and to set about restoring them for their own purposes
    Baerd would come home at the end of a day sometimes with gashes and fresh bruises, and once the mark of a whip across his shouldersShe knew that if one company of omega constellation soldiers had ended their sport with him there were others to pick it upIt was only happening here, she'd heardEverywhere else the soldiers restrained themselves and the King of Ygrath was governing with care, to consolidate his provinces against Barbadior
    In Lower Corte they were special, thoughThey had killed his son
    She would see those marks on Baerd and she had not the heart to ask him to deny himself his lost city at night when the need rose in himEven though she lived a hundred terrors and died half a hundred deaths every time the front door closed behind him after dark, until she heard it open again and heard his loved, familiar footstep on the stairs, and then the landing, and then he came into her room to take and hold her in his arms
    It went on into summer and then it endedIt all ended, as her knowing heart had forewarned her from that first kelly hermes time in darkness, listening to the birds singing and the wind in the trees outside
    He came home no later than he usually did from walking abroad one night when blue Ilarion had been riding alone through a high lacework of cloudsIt had been a beautiful nightShe had sat up late by her window watching the moonlight falling on the rooftopsShe'd been in bed when he came home though, and her heart had quickened with the familiar intermingling of relief and guilt and needHe had come into her room
    He didn't come to bedInstead, he sank into the chair she'd sat in by the windowWith a queer, numb feeling of dread she had struck tinder and lit her candleShe sat up and looked at himHis face was very white, she could see that even by candlelight
    "I was on the beach," Baerd said quietly"I saw a riselka there
    She had always known it would end
    She asked the instinctive gucci knockoff handbags ques

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